for the longest time, i have been stuck in the abyss. the edges are slippery, and i cant seem to pull myself through.
for the longest time, i was comfortable in the abyss. drowning in misery, i would contemplate so many things, none of which is helpful or sane.
the abyss is my comfort zone, a place i go back to when nothing good is going on in my life. where there are no other voices, no judgments or prejudice, other than mine.
there are times i step out into the light. it is nice and warm (compared to the enveloping cold and loneliness of the abyss), but like a hermit crab, i go back into the dark abyss and revert back to my old ways.
for me, stepping out into the light (and staying there) is hard work. as they say, it is a decision. on the other hand, stating in the abyss is ALSO a decision.
today i make another decision. i have to step out to the light. i have to try. it will not be easy adjusting to the light, but it has to be done. no more excuses.
i have to take control of my life.
will you hold my hand as i go through this journey?
Sending you prayers of strength! You can do it!
ReplyDeleteIn the last few years, I've been able to enjoy being happy instead of finding reasons to be sad. It's a conscious decision, and I'm glad you've made it :)
ReplyDeleteWe're here for you
Oh Cheri, just leave it to God and let things be done by His will. If you are going with His will, He will guide you through. Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeleteabsolutely!
ReplyDeletehugs from DC. smile through the toughest times.
YES!!! I'm so happy you are writing again. The light is warm, and our hands (and hearts) are open. I'm here for you.
ReplyDeleteI'll hold your hand my friend. Sending you good thoughts...
ReplyDeleteLots of yummy love,
Alex aka Ma What's For Dinner
www.mawhats4dinner.com
Sending some prayers your way today and thinking of you. Hope you are doing well.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about you, and wanted to say hi. I miss you!
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