there, i said it. i'm depressed. about what, i dont know. there are days when i just fall into a slump and stay there. i havent really figured out what could get me out. i still havent figured out what triggers it.
a lot of things come to my head in moments like this. bad mommy. bad wife. bad friend. and i can justify all of them, too. i can enumerate one by one why i am all these. i do feel unworthy as a mother that i wonder why i have this job. i'm not very good at this. i wonder if i should look for something that i can be good at, like an actual job. maybe i'm just a bit burned out. is that possible, to be burned out as a mother? should i be really worried?
how do you get yourself out of the pit?
Yes, I think it is possible to be bummed out of being a mom. Maybe you could try to find a new hobby or take some online courses? Something you could do at home that would make you excited again without putting JackJack into a daycare? I'm not good with telling you how to get out of a hole ... I tend to go back and forth to it.
ReplyDeleteYou are not a bad mommy ... I'm serious. You're just a normal mommy.
I will pray for you my dear friend, and I hope you feel better soon. I miss you around here!
YES! You can DEFINITELY get burned out as a mother. I mean, motherhood is a blessing, but it's also a JOB - one that we don't get to take a sick day, or a mental health day, from. We get no vacation time, no breaks, no weekends ... it's perpetual, 24 hours a day, and even when the kids are sleeping we're still "on-call." Anyone with a job description like that is bound to get burned out! It's normal, it's natural, it happens to us all.
ReplyDeleteI am the same way, always finding fault with myself. When I get too down in the dumps, I have to pull myself up by the bootstraps and simply make myself get moving. It's hard at first. But action breeds more action, and so the act of catching up on the laundry leads to catching up on the clutter and so on. Exercising always makes me feel better, even if I don't want to do it (which I never do). Whatever's bothering you, work on changing it little by little. Baby steps. It's never easy, but it does help. :)
I'm not a mom, but I understand that no mother is perfect! They make mistakes all the time, and you shouldn't feel bad AT ALL.
ReplyDeleteYou're an amazing person and anyone who knows you even just a little bit can't deny your love for your son.
Cheer up :)
Cheri - I'm so sorry to hear you're depressed. I wouldn't wish depression on anyone. Do you knit or crochet? For some reason, this seems to be very cathartic. Actually, any creative outlet helps, you just have to forse yourself to start it. Also, if this is the first time for you and it's lasted a long time, you should see your doctor - it could be something else like hypothyroidism. I'm writing about Parenting with Depression on Today's Mama now (here's my first post) and although I'm pretty new at it now, I'll be writing about coping strategies soon.
ReplyDeletexo Erin
I think we all get burned out. I know I for sure do. I tend to get down on myself a lot as well. I try to remind myself that I'm a beautiful, worthy, dedicated, deserving woman and just because I don't feel like it at the mom and a person all the time doesn't mean I'm not.
ReplyDeleteYou are loved and you are awesome! I hope you're feeling better soon.
I hope you feel better soon! I get down sometimes too but it will pass. Give yourself a break and some time. It's like I tell my fiance sometimes when he worries about me - I'm human. I can't always be happy. :)
ReplyDeleteMotherhood has its days of thanklessness and boredom and frustration, so it is only natural to sometimes feel down and to get burned out, especially when your kids are still young. I hope your days grow brighter. Find something you enjoy and do it. Find something, a little something to do for yourself and know that you are loved and valued even if sometimes it doesn't feel that way.
ReplyDeleteAnd too, it never hurts to get help. sometimes, it's the easiest way to find the light again.